Again, it has been way to long since I have been here. Well guess it is time for an update. Life is going good, I guess since I no longer question who I am but now I question, "WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING?" - really. I am still pursuing my master in Professional Counseling but as I look at the amount of debt I have accumulated throughout my years as a student I wonder "Is it worth it?" and I am not sure. I want to be a counselor but not in private practice. I want to work for an agency so that means not enough bucks to cover the loans and living expenses. So, is it selfish of me to think this way because my goal, my goal is to help people, especially teenagers who are unable to mentally function day to day? Millions of people are unable to deal mentally and they need a hand, the need understanding, they need someone to not judge them and think they are freaks or unworthy, they need empathy not sympathy, they need encouragement, they need to not be beaten done by the mental illness that is affecting them. There are a lot of people who are mentally that are medicated but medication is only a band-aid. If someone has to be medicated then I believe they need to be in counseling as well because there are demons and chaos that need to confronted and dealt with. URRGGHHH I guess I can go on forever but the point is - well I guess the accumulating debt is worth it.

Michael Jackson - Earth Song

So here I sit watching videos on YouTube. Currently I am watching Michael Jackson Earth video. The man is a true genius. I will not judge him personally as I am not God and only God has that right. But what I can say for me personally Michael Jackson as an entertainer is number one. No other can top his creativeness - the lyrics to his songs, the videos, and the dance move - his love for his profession cannot be out done. Don't get me wrong there are quite a few great entertainers but for me none that can out do Michael - he has the whole package wrapped and sealed tight. I’ll be posting his video to my blog.
Watching the video and listening to the music, for me at least, makes me wonder how society any society and myself included in that society has let our Mother Earth down. How come we did not protect her from such vile malicious evil? Was it our greed, our laziness, our attitude for taking things for granted – what was it?  Is too late to save her? Are there enough people who care enough to save her? Should we save her? Are we as humans even worthy of our Mother Earth? No I think we are not.

Well the New Year is here. Went to my best friend’s house and enjoyed waiting for the New Year to come in. Started with Dim Sum on New Year’s Eve in the afternoon. Went to BevMos to get some desert wine but also picked up some caviar. Wanted to try something new before the New Year rolled in. It was really good so definitely will be having it again – well when I can afford it.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!