Again, it has been way to long since I have been here. Well guess it is time for an update. Life is going good, I guess since I no longer question who I am but now I question, "WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING?" - really. I am still pursuing my master in Professional Counseling but as I look at the amount of debt I have accumulated throughout my years as a student I wonder "Is it worth it?" and I am not sure. I want to be a counselor but not in private practice. I want to work for an agency so that means not enough bucks to cover the loans and living expenses. So, is it selfish of me to think this way because my goal, my goal is to help people, especially teenagers who are unable to mentally function day to day? Millions of people are unable to deal mentally and they need a hand, the need understanding, they need someone to not judge them and think they are freaks or unworthy, they need empathy not sympathy, they need encouragement, they need to not be beaten done by the mental illness that is affecting them. There are a lot of people who are mentally that are medicated but medication is only a band-aid. If someone has to be medicated then I believe they need to be in counseling as well because there are demons and chaos that need to confronted and dealt with. URRGGHHH I guess I can go on forever but the point is - well I guess the accumulating debt is worth it.